Heartbreak
The morning started with a facetime filled with giggles and texts with kissy faces. The night ended with puffy eyes and a tear soaked pillow. The sorrowful heartbreak led to some beautiful poetry.
The fall
Golden light shimmers upon you one moment, life’s darkest hour descends upon you the next. Stumbles and fumbles are anticipated, but no one is ever truly prepared for the fall from grace.
If life was an ocean, we spend most of our time bobbing around in semi calm sea states. There are the occasional crests and troughs amongst the waves, but nothing we are capable of handling. However, there are exceptions to this monotonous lull. One can awaken to find the water smooth as glass reflecting a beautiful blue sky or, in my case, a storm that constructs waves that dare to pound you into the bottom of Mariana’s trench.
Ok, I’ll stop with the illustration I’m butchering, but you get the point! In times of pure bliss or gut wrenching anguish, we can be at a loss of words due to be enveloped by an overwhelming surge of emotion. Luckily, as I learned, time turns these intense emotions are corrected to the steady state we are normally used to.
Capturing the feeling
There is something magical about capturing a feeling; it’s almost like encapsulating a bit of the human soul. It’s then no surprise that so many people choose to transfer their feelings into words, so that others may read them and feel the same emotion.
In the heat of the moment, it can be hard to truly formulate the experience into a string of words. It is sometimes only after the rush of such a powerful event that it can be possible to write the experience down. It can be moments after, or perhaps years after, but once the perfect jumble of letters form a string of words that when read make you hair on your arms stand up, you know that you captured that feeling,
It then becomes a choice to continue to relive the experience by re-reading the words, letting other experience it by sharing, or laying it to rest by destroying it. In any case, once it is written, it is empowering to know that you have control over your experience. You may not have been able to have controlled how or why you underwent the event, but afterwards you have the ability to direct where that feeling goes. You can let it live on or let it die. You are the keeper of your experiences.
My heart break poem
In my case, I went through a really rough breakup that left me feeling shattered (hence my heartbreak poem, Broken Pieces). After a few days when I was able to collect myself into a normal functioning adult again, I crafted this poem. As you may notice, it is very dark; a great representation of my mind during the midst of the heartache.
Having written it out and seeing it displayed in black and white on a page helped me let go of such weighing emotions that I was clinging to. It was as if I had set them free.
Write it out
I know, I know, I sound a little crazy, but if you’re dealing with something painful, I highly suggest taking up a pen and jotting the thoughts down. You don’t even need a pen, writing notes on the phone works too! When I first started, I made a list of bullet point with one word emotions. Eventually I was able to grow my list into phrases and then a poem!
Scribbling out words is like creating cracks in a dam. At first, small cracks start to form letting small streams of water out. Then at some point, the damn busts open, releasing all your pent up feelings come gushing out.
Ok, I’ll get off my soap box, but don’t knock it ’till you try it!
Same goes for positive emotions too. If you just had the most fantastically amazing day ever, write it down! Save it and cherish it. Your words leave your story behind.
Closing
Thank you all for those that read to this point. For those that are skimmers, here were the take away closing points:
- Good and bad days equal out eventually
- Write down the feelings you experienced through the extreme highs and lows
That’s all for now. One of the poems I wrote during my heart healing process is down below. Other poems can be found by clicking on this link: https://poeticpeach.com/category/poetry/
Let me know if you have any poems that you would like to share!